I'm in the midst of major upheaval in my life.
You, too?!?
Congratulations and I'm terribly sorry.
So much stripping of the old paradigm is happening that my normal chill behavior is rattled, raw, insecure and fearing the unknown.
I should know better, and I do; but i can't help feeling the world view of mass upheaval.
It's a 'do or die' kind or time on our Earth.
Lots of breakdowns, break ups, uncovering, big happenings, and light shining on the darkness.
The Old World is crumbling and we aren't in the New World just yet.
You have to see the mess of destruction and then the clean up first.
Personally, I have been shown the light of my fear of success.
Sure, I believe it's possible, teaching it, and preaching it everyday in lessons, classes, ensembles, to friends and family.
But, have I ever stopped to see my true SELF as a success?
I realized I hadn't truly and was brought to tears.
I was relying on others' viewpoints to guide and nourish my view of my success!
I'm a giver. It comes easy to me.
Well, it did until people kept taking advantage of my kindness and ripped my heart to shreds.
(Insert dramatic country music here.)
I closed up for a long time; angry that people could be so mean to authenticity.
I was hurt and it showed.
Then came an upheaval in my life that blew me back into the present.
I have been playing more music as a solo artist recently and it feels good.
It's been easy for me to hide behind my teaching and performing in bands, as there are buffers of experience and bodies to play with.
Performing solo showed me myself. Where I was and where I should be.
The upheaval of solo performance made me see how much I relied on others to guide my success factor, and how I kind of lost myself.
When you see it in one area of your life, you begin to see it in all areas of your life.
Thus, I am raw, new, and in the unknown.
After all the years of running a business, you'd think I'd be used to upheaval.
Everything is always changing, not much is stable. 
A business is external; my Soul and Journey are within.
So, I go forth new and expectant and with hope.
I see that I matter and that I am supposed to be here to help our Earth heal through the gift of Music.
Never let it be said that an Old Soul can't learn new tricks.
This Old Soul is now brand spanking new.
Old New.
"It is our Light, not our darkness, that most frightens us."-Nelson Mandela

Whew!
Sorry for the delay in posting Saja Speaks.
I have been busy working on songs, touring, collaborating with new music friends and having a personal life. Yes. A personal life. I've realized how much I give away due to having a solid mission here to help heal you and all of us through Music, so I'm giving more to me.
I have realized through great friends that I am worthy to receive. 
I love seeing what I give to others, so why do I feel guilty receiving it?
I'll tell ya..
We are addicted to suffering.
It's not like we want to be.
We've just had the habit since birth to work hard and long, pleasure being a no no, good food and drink having a sinful quality and so forth.
Ridiculous.
People always comment on why I love the finer things in life.
It's because I deserve them.
But even as I see that, I still feel a little guilt if there is not something wrong somewhere.
Again, ridiculous.
We tend to fall into the notion that guilt and suffering are human nature, when they are truly human habit.
We have been at this shit show called fear for so long, that we think it's something inherent; something every human is and does.
Nope.
We are born to thrive.
Look at your body for example. 
When you cut your skin on paper or while chopping something for dinner, you body isn't like "Oh gaaaawd!! I'm dying! I'm leaking! It's getting bigger!"
It's more like "Okay, skin, let's get to repairing NOW!" 
Cells start dividing to seal the wound, scar tissue is birthed, and the blood cells begin to clot.
You body's mission is to thrive.
So, Dear Soul in your body...aren't you supposed too as well?
Just a reminder for both of us.
Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to take my thriving self to a jam and play some music.
I'm baaaaack.
See ya soon. 
​Mwah. :)

​All this "Toxic Masculinity" talk is making me realize how much men need to be paid MUCH MORE attention to than less. People tend to want to get angry and hold fast to the old paradigm of men. 
Instead of feeding the dominant male attitude with more anger towards men, perhaps honoring the men in your life that truly are genuine will give the best example to those men who have been taught (yes...they have been TAUGHT), to be TOXIC. 
An Analogy:
Blacks and Indigenous Peoples of America have been enslaved, hung, beaten, raped, dishonored, and discriminated against by the white race historically for hundreds of years in this country. 
I, and the rest of the Black and Native race could simply just surmise that ALL white people from this point on are still that way. 
But all white people aren't, yes? 
The race as a whole is evolving and seeing the need to heal from that past, whether voluntarily or by kharmic example. 
Many whites are now are seeing our global tribe, not just their tribe.
And the evolution of a higher, kinder-minded race is slowly developing.
So, in turn, all men aren't toxic.
SO, let's nourish the amazing men in our lives. 
They, in turn, will be uplifted and will create a domino effect that can simply and hopefully diminish toxic male dominance. Don't believe me? 
Please read the paragraph about white/black and Native relations above again. 
It's very possible. 
Drop your negativity and doubt from past pain and you will see this and oh, so very much more, Beings of Earth.
Much love. ❤️❤️❤️
Shout out to all the amazing men in my life. 
Blessed to have 100% Kings in my life. 
As a Queen, I command it. 
I am a gift to the men in my life and they are a gift to me.
Thus, we are naturally equal in our differences and respect and love comes organically.
Like attracts like, baby. 

 It's an amazing time on our Earth.
"Whaaaaat?!?" You say. "It's the most f@%ked up and conservative we've been!"
"Especially after all the revolutionary decades!!"
Have you ever seen a bubble pop?
When a bubble is about to pop, notice the colors and how much it tries to hold on. You can quite literally see the colors move wildly as it tries to keep it shape. But then...boom.
It pops.
This is very similar to how the old paradigm is acting.
Many of us are trying so hard to cling to what we know that we are clamoring to keep our old beliefs, standards, and safety in tact all the while knowing it doesn't work anymore.
Insanity is repeating the same acts and expecting different results.
So we cling to the old, desperate for stability in one of the most unstable times on our Earth.
It's understandable. 
Most beings here need answers, safety and everything known to exist here.
That's human habit, not human nature.
Every evolution happens due to a non-conformed thought.
That thought comes from too much similarity, wanting more due to discomfort, or comfort that allows for creativity. 
With that non-conformed thought comes a vision and desire. 
With that vision and desire comes a new way of thinking; a stretch in thought, if you will. 
As a result of any purposed vision, particulate energies gather to support that vision and thought. 
If little to no resistance is given, that vision, paired with those "ready to create" particulates create what is envisioned.
And thus, evolution happens. and your desire to thrive continues.
The Earth, its people, and all of existence is built to thrive. 
It is Law.
So what is allowing all of this resistance?
The human habit of fear and suspicion of course, coupled with a ton of regret and inadequacy.
Pair that with a sense of hopelessness and feelings of entrapment and whoa nelly, you've got a planet in a hot mess!
Ever notice a remodel?
You have to break down and destroy the old to get to the new.
AND, you have to see the mess to see what needs to be repaired and rebuilt.

So, beautiful being, there's no need to fear.
There is, however, a need to face your shit.
We are in a global community and it's time for all of us to step up.
If you are here, you are very much needed.
YOU as in your best you.
So what do you do first?
See or FEEL what you are trying so hard to keep the same even though you KNOW it ain't right.
Something or some experience that you're trying so hard to keep that just keeps failing.
Stop the justification of "I've put so much into this, so it has to work out!"
Your micro-managing is making it worse not better.
These are unstable times; a time of remodel.
So chaining yourself to the proverbial house will not make it stay if it's not supposed to stay.
Let it go.
If it comes back or isn't destroyed, it is yours.
In the meantime, try and face yourself; for the first or the thousand and first time.
You're meant to thrive, so aligning with your Higher Self is always a win win...
Can't wait to see YOU.
Cheers,
​Saja

Greetings,
    I am going to be posting blogs in video form mostly as I am visual and LOVE to express. 
Like texting, the words can be misunderstood, taken to seriously or not taken seriously enough.
You wait for an answer and assume the worst, when they could only just be peeing or walking the dog.
But I digress...
Every week, I will post something on Music, Life on Earth and what our Universe is trying to tell us.
I hope you enjoy it. 
If not, no worries.
GO click on another page.
See you in a week.
​Saja